Conversation with the New Moon in Pisces March 2019
I asked the moon what insight or messages she has for us during this cycle, like I do…she says:
She wants us to know that the all new moon energy is about new beginnings, starting over, and potential… the energy has been building toward the end of a cycle and a new beginning for some time. The end of the cycle is now, the new beginning coming in with Spring. The cycle of completion and starting new is an invitation or opportunity to let go of the sabotaging behaviors of the past by paying attention to all the emotions rising up and checking in with yourself to see if they are past or present emotions. If they are past emotions (you’ll know because they will be all too uncomfortably familiar in a way that makes you feel like you are swept up in a shit-storm because of Mercury going Retrograde in Pisces with this moon’s energy), you will benefit by acknowledging and doing your best to exercise your free-will to make new choices in thought and action. Shifting the past patterns that rise up in you and bring discomfort does not have to be executed with perfection: just do your best, communicate with yourself by checking in and listening to your intuition (your body, your emotions, your dreams, your knowing). You are facing your own darkness during this moon, you may be blindly reaching for something new, and you may feel like you have been shaken rigorously with the discomfort that comes in waves through the completion of the cycle and/or the onset of Spring…but you are never alone. Pay attention to your intuition, your dreams, and your signs (numbers, animals, messages). When you notice a rise of uncomfortable energy/emotion or find yourself affected by the moon or a planet, ask yourself what is real for me right now in this situation – not what FEELS real, but what you know is factual. Trust what you know and do something to shift back to comfortable, this is how to create something new. Now, I insist on having Michelle share her experience for you so that you may understand the application of the supportive energy of this time…
Here is the story the moon asked me to share:
Yesterday marked Mercury going Retrograde in Pisces, which is amplifying the new moon in Pisces energy. Notice the double Pisces? Yeah, that’s double emotion. It is uncomfortable for a lot of people and many people freak out about Mercury in Retrograde because it brings with it communication issues and all the things seemingly going wrong. I always suggest not making BIG, life-altering decisions during this time so you don’t a) make things worse or b) have Mercury Retrograde remorse. If you want to burn all the bridges after Mercury goes Direct, then you may really want to burn the bridges…when Retrograde, eh, I suggest erring on the side of caution. As an intuitive healer and coach, I am not exempt from the discomfort but I have learned how to lessen the shit so I can ride out the storm and gain something besides a headache from the sometimes disruptive energies we experience.
Anyway, this is going to be wordy but there was a lot going on for me yesterday. The New Moon energy with the Mercury Retrograde energy is a major push toward releasing the old patterns of thought and behavior that sabotage you. The ways that hold you back, many of which are not even conscious choices. Choices is the key word to shifting out of a pattern. We don’t really think of our thoughts as being a choice and, for many of us, there are/have been times when our thoughts were not ours to choose. I’ve been there and I do understand, even though I have shifted away from those times in my life with practice. These times when we are not behind the wheel of thought is when we are operating on our old belief systems and pain/trauma.
To set the stage: Yesterday, I turned in my first college essay since, *ahem*, a lot of years ago. I felt good about it until I slowly began to feel like a shit-storm was approaching. My chest hurt, my stomach was tight, and my jaw clenched and ached. My emotions were wanting to break something or hit it until it was as uncomfortable as I was; they felt like searing hot fire rising up inside me. I was pissy and snippy when I spoke. I felt like hopelessness and RAGE. My discomfort level was my que to check in, so I did. My thoughts were streaming fluently in ASSHOLE language, telling me things like “you know you failed”, “you’ll never pass and never finish this degree”, “your essay makes you sound like an idiot”, and “you might as well quit now”.
My inner critic used to be a real jerk, so ya know. I don’t hear much from her anymore but she didn’t hesitate to chime in when this uncomfortable subconscious pattern rose up in me (to be healed). I paid attention to all these things: my thoughts, my body, and my emotions. I sat with them and breathed deep until I felt them subside. Then I took out a piece of paper and wrote down what the focus of these uncomfortable thoughts, feelings and emotions seems to be. I came up with one word: Perfection. I’m focusing on perfection (which I don’t even believe exists) and it is making me uncomfortable.
Then I considered what the truth is in my scenario: I’m in school again and I’m uncertain about the outcome but I have a history of doing well academically. I am resourceful. I have a history of proving my resourcefulness time and time again, plus I know I am applying this quality to my current situation. I am adaptable. Not because I am comfortable with adapting, honestly, but because throughout my life I have had to adapt. I can adapt to whatever is needed to make the grade in my current situation.
So, I had choices yesterday.
Choice one was to assess my discomfort and follow it down the rabbit hole where I’ve been before in my past. A path that, for me, leads to incompletion and more discomfort. This is the direction of the shitstorm, the old patterns, and more of the same.
Choice two was to assess my discomfort and redirect myself to what I know is true in this moment, focus on the feelings and thoughts that allow my body to release tension and pain. To redirect as many times as it takes and allow the supportive energy of the moon and more to flow to me.
I chose the latter. I had to redirect a few times because the old pattern was strong…but I am stronger. I haven’t always been able to do this so easily, it comes with practice. If you had asked me years ago if I could shift out of my own over-thinking brain and change my emotional patterns, I would have laughed and defaulted to anything outside of myself. I know now that I lacked knowing what to do and the belief that I was strong/powerful enough to do it until it worked. This information is intended to meet you where you are, wherever that may be. I am fully aware through my own experiences that not everyone is ready to help themselves or have this depth of awareness. Your journey is unique and I honor you where you are. I hope this moon message finds you where you are and brings with it relief or blessings of what new wonders are to come…
If you are interested in more tips for surviving Mercury Retrograde energy for the remainder of the month, check out the post here.
If this moon message resonates with you, it is for you. If you have any questions, please ask instead of going it alone.
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